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November 9, 2007
| Finding Rest For My Weary Body | Views: 207 |
This has been a fairly rough week. I had an Aredia treatment on Tuesday. I went in not feeling too good and came out feeling even worse. Fatigue and depression plagued me incessantly.
Anyway, I finally succumbed to my weary body and asked the doctor for a three week postponement on the 6th chemo cycle. Because my blood work results were good, she agreed. Usually I’m such a trooper on getting the treatments over and done with, but this time, I was really FEELING it.
The seemingly endless Aredia treatments, chemo cycles, visits with the doctors…they were all wearing me down. I was feeling like I’d never see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Also, this month is the first year anniversary of when I found out the cancer had come back and that it had metastasized to my bones. I’m trying to control my thoughts and not dwell on the past but I catch myself with thoughts of “This time last year…” kind of thing. It was a very rough time.
Writing is usually my refuge for when I’m battling depression but this time, my fingers are too sensitive to hold a pen, so I’m having to resort to typing on the computer to empty out some of my thoughts and emotions.
I’ve kept a journal for decades and I write in longhand. Typing is great but there’s just something about hand writing journal entries. It slows my thoughts down, helps me to organize them, and I guess, it’s easier to find the words to express myself. More importantly, I think writing in longhand helps to establish a connection between me and what I’m writing…on an emotional level at least.
Oi, I’m rambling…
02.08.08 - 
Juliette Randall 
Cameron Bethuram 
MO 
Thanks for your support -
Grace, hang in there. It’s great to hear that your blood work is good. Try to focus on that. But it’s alright to express your emotions about how you are really feeling about what you are going through. Your writing gives you an outlet to express yourself. Write it down any way that you can.
As always, you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Glad to hear your bloodwork is good. Things come up to trigger our memories and this being time coming around when all this came back. You’ll get through these emotions and you will get back to feeling better.. Hang in there Grace. We are all thinking of you…
Grace you hang in there. Sometimes it’s ok to take a break. Your body knows what it needs.
(Just a question for you I have a problem signing into my blog page and leaving comments on the people
I support ?? I was wondering if you had the same problem or am I doing something wrong. )
Please take care of your self and keep us posted on how your doing.
Cheryl